Today wasn't my best mom day.
I was hurried and less than kind
I was focused on my list and what had to be done
I was short tempered and unavailable in the present moment
I never yelled or handed out unfair punishment
but I had done enough that my little people could see mom was struggling
I got home after a day of errands
I stood in a kitchen of grocery sacks
With dishes piled high and mail to sort through
With piles of laundry tempting me to move past this one moment
but
He was greater than me
He should have been that way all day
One kiddo was at football practice and the other two escaped to soak up the fall day in our backyard
I stood there and took it in
Not the mess not the exhaustion not laundry
The Flesh
The flesh of me
Me that puts me first
me that isn't slow to anger or long suffering
or kind or forgiving of wrongs
Too much me today
Then right there His grace floods in
I am reminded He humbled himself and served
He traded nobility to be a man
to live holy and die
and face God's wrath for me
For me in the grocery store
for me when I am insensitive to a friend
for me when I am apathetic
for me when there is too much of me
"He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less". John 3:30
Everyday more of Him and less of me
Everyday I want to grow in Him
"But grow in grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ..." 2 Peter 3:18
I will in my flesh fail but He never fails
"I will ask the Father, and He will give you another helper, who will stay with you forever" John 14:16
He has never left me
He is with me
His grace covers today and tomorrow
His Spirit gives me power over my flesh
I will be in step with you in the store
during homeschool
with Sammy
with friends
with church
with a lost world
Be my words and hands and my feet
because on my own I will fail
I will walk with you, Lord
Even with a to-do list
Especially since I am entrusted little people
in-spite of a schedule
because I need you
"But I say ,walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh" Gal 5:16
thank you Lord that your grace covers me up
and that little ones forgive and cuddle
and that your Spirit is relentless to teach and love
Thank You!
